Goodbye Georgetown

I had to take a hard step yesterday. I decided that I would not go to Georgetown University.
I took some time to analyse if I should go or not...
After talking with Ian last weekend I realized something ...he pretty much said that i should do things for myself and not for "us". Once again, another slap in my face. Thank you.

After this, I took some time to answer Georgetown admission and I said that i was really happy to be selected but my plans changed.

Sometimes i think about all the thingss that i was willing to do to help or save some part of "us". But then i force myself to remember that there is no "us".

Yesterday, anyway, it was another day that we spend a day pretty much without talking...with no messages. I know he communicates with other friends just like i do. So once again i asked myself : why should I keep him around when obviously he is not around?

I will ask him today again if he can leave my place. I thought about doing it through email but as He ignored my last email....i will see how its going to be.

Note to self : me first, me second, me third, me me me me me me me, my dreams and me again - priority list