The one who tried harder

Tudo que vai... Volta?

Não. Acho a vida interessantíssima ...

Algumas pessoas chegam ...e saem da sua vida de uma forma que nem vc entende... Talvez por não fazer a menor diferença ...

Já outras ... Chegam de uma forma que não tem como vc não notar... Chega de uma maneira avassaladora ... E tbm se vão... Mas fica aquele vazio... Um buraco que ngm sabe explicar...

Enfim... Nunca pensei que fosse falar isso mas ... Bem-vindo ao meu mundo ... Novamente.  

Does everything that once faded away , come back out of nowhere ? 

Nah! I really think that life is one of the most interesting things ever...

Some people come and leave your life in a way that you can't even understand ... But you just don't miss them and after sometime you feel relief ( when I feel like that it's when I'm sure I did the right thing). Although I have been feeling like this in this last 10 days ... I have to mention that others just come , rock your whole world and conceptions ... Then they gotta go ( for whatever reason )... Then you feel their absence ... You miss them... You miss the way you used to be with them... You miss the smiles and funny moments ... You miss the creative... The lack of shame when the subject is " show love"... You miss their love... Their friendship and the way they treated you.

Someone once told me that what matter is not the breakup itself ... It's not the reasons that leaded you to break up with someone ... But how things goes after that...

Did you fight for the love of your life or did you shut down and kept moving on?

Did you put all efforts to make sure that the other knows what you really want? Did you Show not only with workds but also with actions to the other part how special they are to you and how much you would be willing to do whatever it takes to keep them in your life ? 

Did you give up quickly ? Did you quit?

I did... But he never gave up... And this is what makes me feel so loved .

I needed to experience an horrible relationship in order to appreciate all this little things that I had once ... A paper shaped as a heart with my name on it in clued in his t-shirt in the middle of downtown ( rio); all the hours that he spent awake just for making sure he would be able to wish me a goodnight and catch up with me about my day...

The grape night ... The funny nights in Brazil and Germany ...

The way this guy made me feel so beautiful and desirable .... How down he got when we had the pregnancy result ( which was negative )...

How he was so sure about how great parents we would have been ( and now i see that even with all our differences ...we would be a loving and caring parents together .

... All the people that he choose to remove from his life in order to make sure our relationship was safe and sound...how I felt butterflies every day, every night... I felt like I was a teenager ... And no, I didn't feel ashame about it.

It always impressed me how sure he was about things that he wanted... About people that were worthy to fight for and those who was not worthy at all.

I dunno what future holds ... But I'm glad we met ...and I'm glad to feel ready for meeting you again pretty soon.

Life has a funny funny way of helping you out... Helping you out...